The Song Of Cicada Wings

Edith reflects on Eastbourne England

Eastbourne England and Dunedin New Zealand were similar in climate, in natural beauty and in the penchant for topiary. New Zealanders tried so hard to be English in every way. Australians, on the other hand, were not as good at mimicking English ways as their cousins across the ditch. The dry, hot climate was hardly conducive to tea and scones in the garden. Except of course in Melbourne. Perhaps that was why Melbourne was so revered abroad where other cities, equally as refined, didn’t rate a sideways glance. Edith had married Herbert despite his mother’s constant interference. She had tried everything she could to adjust to Dunedin and to win that woman’s favour. Even attended Presbyterian church services. But even though Mrs Hampton had never really accepted her as family, Edith had still hoped she could change.

This return to Australia would be very different to the last. At least Edith knew what lay ahead. On the last voyage home from England she had been just sixteen and very naive. On that voyage she had not been alone. The whole family had been on board including Rudolpho who was actually born in England. The only home he had known was Eastbourne. The English seaside so calm in contrast to the wilds of Australia.

The family had stayed in Eastbourne for five years. All had gone so well for the first three years but in the fourth, Vincent’s voice broke, which meant no more choir. His debut in the choir at The Royal Albert had gone well but The Royal Choral Society was not knocking on the door asking him to join. School had been a haven for him though as he was fairly popular and he wasn’t the only one whose voice had broken. The problem was that William Albert could no longer afford to keep the boys there. Rent had gone up on the house in Carew Road, voice coaching classes had finished and, because he could not find finance for his opera, William Albert could not present it.

Whilst in Eastbourne there had been a second recession and their mother was having great trouble balancing the accounts. They would have to move. Probably into a flat farther away from the sea. The girls too would have to change schools. To make matters even more difficult, Mathilde was again expecting a child. With Millicent now three and her eldest daughters fast approaching their coming of age she really had her hands full. She hoped and prayed for a miracle. A miracle came. Albert secured a position as Music Conductor for The Carl Rosa Opera Company performance of ‘Les Huguenots,’ at The Royal Alexandra Theatre Liverpool. This meant that for the season they were safe and the baby could be born in the house that they had all come to love.

Edith shed a tear for her mother as she remembered back to the time preceding Rudolpho’s birth. The family Fortunes had changed and everyone knew it. She remembered their father being away for months while Mathilde tried to stick to the household routines, sort the family budget, look after Millicent and keep up appearances as her belly grew and grew. Edith, of course had been as helpful as possible and Florence too, in her own way. Monday was market day. Tuesday was washing. Wednesday was the day for cleaning the house, which was referred to as spit and polish day. Thursday was sewing day. Friday was set aside for bills, banking and reconciliation of receipts and dockets. Saturday was a full body wash for all in the bath in preparation for Sunday mass. The children ceased to complain about being obligated to attend mass for their mothers sake. The boys were always on hand when needed. Vincent and Charles would do most of the heavy lifting. Groceries, buckets full of water for the sink and for the bath as well as moving furniture around so that their mother and sisters could clean. Harold was a wiz with the finances and really helped with the budgeting even though he was only ten and little Millicent loved to help with the spit and polish routine. It was often a bone of contention on Sunday mornings though as that was when the steam train, The Brighton Belle, would arrive at Eastbourne Station, sometimes, carrying theatre troupes that travelled to Eastbourne from all over England.

Mathilde would occasionally attend too with calling cards advertising piano lessons for herself and voice coaching on her husband’s behalf. The excitement at meeting stars of the London Theatre was more than special. It was positively exhillerating!

It was very hard for Mathilde in the last three months of her pregnancy as she was frowned upon for showing up anywhere at all in her condition. Particularly at the bank. She could hardly send Harold, and Vincent, who beside being only fourteen, was just like his father. No idea about finances. The girls at sixteen and seventeen could be trusted but she doubted the bank would deal fairly with them. So somehow she dealt with the bank alone, making sure everything was above board and kept records of absolutely every transaction.

As she came closer to term Edith and Florence were removed from school. One day, as the girls were returning from Carlisle Road with bags full of market produce, they came across the two household guards who had rescued them that day on the cliffs. Delighted to see the girls they asked about the family. When Edith told them of the difficulties the family were going through, they offered very politely, to help. Exactly three months later, in the month of March 1886, the two smartly dressed Household Cavalry Lifeguards were sent for, to escort Mathilde Richardson to hospital for all to see. Just like royalty. Within eight hours of being admitted, Mathilde had given birth to her fourth son.

William Albert arrived at the hospital two days later and was overjoyed at being the proud father of yet another boy.

We’ll name him Rudolpho … Rudolpho Alfonso. He declared as he took the baby into his arms.

Why Rudolpho dear?
After the poet in, ‘La Boheme.’ We won’t spell it the Italian way. That way he’ll fit in better.

The children filed in one after the other and the eldest took turns at holding the newborn. When informed by their father of the name that had been chosen for their baby brother they were very surprised.

Rudolpho Alfonso? Vincent remarked, smirking. You cannot be serious father?

It’s a strange choice father. Added Edith.

Well, I think it’s a lovely name. Florence cooed. It’s just different. I think he will be different.

It’s embarrassing to have a brother named Rudolpho Alfonso, father! Vincent protested. It’s hard enough at school already!

Now son! It is a fine name. Just like yours is a fine name. If one wears one’s name with dignity one is always respected. Remember that Vincent.

Not here in Eastbourne it’s not.
Well, you won’t have to worry about that anymore. Smiled his father knowingly. I have news.

The Past Tense Of Youth

A Gypsy Spell

Each time they were together my heart would cry silent tears and as days turned into weeks and weeks into months the pain became almost unbearable. I longed for him to recognise me, to speak my name, to caress my skin with his gentle loving hands and to break the hold that she had on us both. Maybe that was it. Once this hold was broken we would be transported once more into the world to which we belonged.

I concentrated my thoughts on Greylin castle amidst the green dales of Cumberland. How could I win him back? Why did I feel so compelled to bring them together in spite of my own feelings? She had lured me into her world only to steal my husband right from under my nose. How was it possible to break the spell of a gypsy? I knew that I must find a way. Maybe the coming changes would solve my dilemma.

The Young Turks were growing in number and revolution would soon beat down the door.

Maybe ‘Hamdi Bey’ would find out about Rana’s lover and he would have her executed for conspiring against him. I prayed that this would never come to pass. I wondered what I would do if such a circumstance occurred and then at the same moment rebuked myself for having such terrible thoughts. I did not want to be the cause of her demise… Or did I? I wanted only to have all the way it was before. I wanted to wake in my own bed at Greylin with my husband beside me dreaming only of our wedded bliss.

Gurol would take on many disguises over the course of time. Many months passed in the glow of golden moments stolen from the the sultan and his entourage. Sometimes the moments were many and could be stretched into hours but at other times they were fleeting and passed so quickly that he and Rana barely had time to brush their lips together in the kiss of a gentle breeze. Often he would disguise himself as one of the servant girls.

At one time he even served the Valide Sultan without her even being remotely suspicious. If she had seen the moustache it would have been a dead give away but as he wore a long scarf draped from his left shoulder and clipped just beneath his right ear covering his mouth and nose only the eyes were exposed. Because those eyes were so light it was easy to mistake him for a foreigner. Even I was fooled by his disguises sometimes and it was a source of great amusement for all three of us that we were able to get away with such daring escapades.

There were times when we three would enjoy an hour or so together in the little apartment which Rana now occupied as befitting her status. The wife of the court painter, Elisabetta Pante, had been given permission to make sketches of Rana and myself. She had asked permission to bring a friend. Her friend was quite tall and given to wearing full robes at all times. The modest type especially in public.

The friend, of course, was none other than Gurol in one of his many guises. He would appear in a long kaftan with long dark veil carrying Elisabetta’s sketch books along with her sticks of charcoal and colour pastels in a basket. The four of us would dine on fruit and sweetmeats together whilst Rana and I posed. During the breaks he and Rana would embrace behind a screen while I helped Elisabetta prepare for the next drawing in the small servants room.

As Rana posed for Elisabetta I would look across at him but he did not seem to feel my pain and seemed blissfully unaware of the despair which dwelt just beneath my smile. If any of us were found out it would be certain death. If the charade were discovered and Gurol executed I could not go on. I wished I could make him recognise me.

Then one night as he passed me in the corridor on his way back to the guards he grabbed my hand and looked down into my eyes. He stared at me for a long period of time still with my hand in his and leaned across to whisper in my ear. “Why do you do this for us little one? What is in this for you? You risk your life every day for the honour of a love that is not even yours.” I looked down at the tiled floor shining in the blue light of dawn which peered in at us through the lattice. “Or is it?”, he cooed and lifted my chin to meet his gaze. At that moment I knew he recognised me as being more than just friend and confidante.I wanted him to declare it then and there but there were approaching footsteps and he pulled me back into the shadows behind the arched doorway.

Sultan Abdul Hamid and his mother were in deep conversation. They were followed by his first wife and two of his daughters, one of whom , was carrying a baby boy dressed in a blue velvet coat with fur trim. I surmised this must be the next Sultan in waiting. All seemed pale except for the rosy cheeks of the infant.
A sense of fear permeated the air. The Valide Sultan linked arms with her son “All will be clear in the morning. We are not without the means of defence. We have changed the guards just in time. Really you worry yourself for nothing.” Hamdi Bey furrowed his thickened brows. “Mother the Ottoman parliament has just been suspended replaced by a general assembly and you tell me to be calm? Even my own officers are turning against me.” He complained bitterly.
“This…. self proclaimed … ‘Army Of Liberty’ …. is bent on destroying everything I’ve worked for. I cannot … I will not let this happen!” he bellowed.
“You are scaring your daughters.” His mother retorted. “You want your grandchild to grow up to be afraid of every obstacle that crosses his path?”

The Past Tense Of Youth

The Charade

A line of carriages arrived bearing the wives of the Sultan. We all ran to the window to see them. It seemed as if all of Topkapi was moving to Yildiz palace that night. As they entered the Great Hall Rana joined them. When the guards had returned almost two hours later they were dismayed to find Rana amongst us. Rana explained in her sultry voic,e which seemed to drive them mad with desire, that she had in fact been feeling out of sorts and had merely retired to her chamber for a rest.

The guards had been constrained because the private chambers of the Sultan’s consorts were off limits to any man other than the Sultan. None would dare tell that they had not found her and when ‘Hamdi Bey’ returned he was informed that Rana had actually fainted backstage and Jamal had taken her to her room. Gurol, who was now once again an officer, had joined the military guards in quarters directly opposite the harem pavilion. He had easily found his way to Rana’s boudoir, managing to sneak through the gardens hiding behind the tall poplar trees. No -one saw him climb through the window and into her bed. The high walls surrounding Yildiz Palace may have been the reason for ‘Hamdi Bey’s’ preference for it as a place to entertain guests. Not only was it away from the prying eyes of his servants but its location would also limit the possibilities of a seaside attack. We did not yet know that there were plans to make this palace our new home.

Yildiz palace overlooked two other palaces down the hill and close to the waters edge. ‘Dolmobache and Ciragen palaces were much grander but maybe not as safe as Yildiz and, though the walls seemed to reach way up to the clouds, there were gaps in the stone work from which we could glimpse the sea. There was also a bridge which connected the palace with Ciragen but this was off limits to us.

Inside the walls there were manicured gardens weaved around pavilions.There were courtyards with pools, greenhouses and aviaries with rare birds such as the Hoopoe, the Blue Parrot, and the Hunkari, a frill pigeon trained for racing. These birds were greatly prized and sought after. I had once overheard a conversation between a buyer and vendor in the marketplace. The buyer described the bird he wanted thus…

“It must have an arched forehead with large, bright, prominent eyes. It’s breast must be broad and well rounded and its body firm and compact. Plumage must be well developed, smooth and even”.
It was sometime before I realised they were speaking of pigeons and not of women. These caged birds symbolised believers eager to be liberated from their mortal coils. Setting them free would earn them points in heaven.
Strange that these believers could not see the parallels between captured birds and captured women.

Copyright By Renee Dallow ( Author )

Rizzo The Mezzapica Dog

A Story Of Lost And Found

Rizzo had wandered all alone

Miles away and far from home

A little white terrier

Full of life and very smart

Where had he come from?

No-one knew.

No-one cared.

Alone on the streets this dog was lost

Eating morsels that had been tossed

Into the gutter

Or even worse

Road kill recently dead

One day they found him

Lying there

Like a sewer rat

No-one cared

No welcome mat

No bed

Then the council people came

Put him in a cage

At a place called Barcs

Then a foster family came

Took him home for a feed

BUT COULDN’T KEEP HIM LONG

He had so much need

To be loved

They simply couldn’t cope

Poor Rizzo cried

Began to lose hope

One day a lovely lady came

She was pretty cool

Adopted him and took him home

Rizzo got agro

But she was no fool

Took him to cafes

Rizzo got upset

He didn’t like

Other people’s pets

So a trainer was called

To train them both

It took some time

But Rizzo came round

Never again to be lost and found

An orphan in the doggy pound.

Not all cafes rated the same

Some too snooty

Some too tame

But soon they found the perfect fit

Mezzapica was it’s name

With his new friends

Lina, Andrew, Brasha, and the rest

Rizzo rates this one the best

Every day he leads his owner there

For a latte and croissant

He knows he is loved

And soon will have his own blog

Rizzo The Mezzapica Dog.

By Renee Dallow ( Owner Of Rizzo. )